I know that all homeschool moms have that day where they just freak. You know the one that I am talking about. It is the day that you think that you are doing more harm than good. You wonder if your child is keeping up with the schools or if they are just doing enough to get by.
That was the case for me last week when I decided that it would be a great idea to do the kids' progress reports(we are required to do them) and use worldbook's curriculum outlines. Well I freaked. I was crying, I was upset. I locked myself in my room with books all spread out on my bed. I was trying to figure out where I went wrong. Not enough school? Not challenging enough?
Then I called my mom. I told her that I was trying to get the reports done and she started asking questions. I found myself defending my decision to homeschool my children and our decision NOT to test the kids. This is something that my mother was adamant about. She wanted her grand kids tested. There was no if and or buts about it. She believes that we are doing a disservice to our children by NOT testing them. That they need that test to build their self confidence. That they need to be able to compare their progress with those around the country. I found myself remembering WHY I was homeschooling. It was because I didn't want that.
My mom did make one valid point. She asked if I am homeschooling the kids because I don't like the way my public schools are run, then why am I using their guidelines to homeschool. I should be doing above and beyond what was required. She was meaning that I should be testing my kids even though my state doesn't require it. I took it as I should make sure that I do more academically than is required.
After getting off the phone, I took another look at the things spread out across the bed. I realized that my kids really aren't doing as bad as I thought. They are way ahead in some areas and some areas they are struggling with. But that is the joy of homeschooling. I can work on those areas that they are struggling with.
I am going to be spending the day planning out our next unit. I am going to also plan out this week. While I plan I am going to remember that my kids could never have a teacher that loved them more.